Happy New Year/ 2008 Resolutions

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Here are my resolutions for 2008.

FYI: They are not in any order of importance.

Work out regularly.

Improve diet.

Meditate everyday.

Stop smoking cigarettes.

Volunteer frequently.

Create more art.

Travel when I can.

Continue to love others and myself while furthering my personal growth.

That's it folks! Best wishes to our planet, it's people and I truly hope this is the year we edge closer to true peace on Earth.

Amen.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Christmas Eve

This last year has sped by so fast. And here we are at another Christmas Eve.

Today I'm feeling depressed, unmotivated and sad. I know there are people who are concerned and who love me out there but during holidays it's easy to slip into these type of feelings.

It doesn't help that two of the three people I thought I was dating have basically told me that we were in fact not dating. Anders said i was moving to fast (when in all honesty I know I wasn't) and Todd told me two days ago all he wanted from me was sex. And if someone asked me where things stood with Keith stood, I wouldn't be able to because I don't know.

This Christmas I am still single but I won't be alone during this holiday. My plans will take over to the East Bay and I'll be spending it at another friend named Keith.

Tonight, I'll be having dinner with my boss and he always cooks up an amazing meal!

I'm trying to brighten up my own mood by staying busy and surrounding myself with friends and people who care for me.

Ultimately, isn't that what the holidays are about?

techno christmas

Here's a video clips of my small but cute Techno xmas tree. Enjoy!

Buddhist thought for the Week

A man's reach should exceed his grasp, or what's a heaven for?
Robert Browning

Buddhist thought for the Week

You are now in control of your life. You see, the ego is never in control. The ego is controlled by wishes for comfort and convenience on the part of the body, by demands of the mind, and by outbursts of the emotions. But the higher nature controls the body and the mind and the emotions. I can say to my body, "Lie down there on that cement floor and go to sleep," and it obeys. I can say to my mind, "Shut out everything else and concentrate on this job before you," and it's obedient. I can say to my emotions, "Be still, even in the face of this terrible situation," and they are still. It's a different way of living. The philosopher Thoreau wrote: If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps he hears a different drummer. And now you are following a different drummer--the higher nature instead of the lower. - Peace Pilgrim

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Pictures From Last Few Days

When It Rains

The last few days have been very interesting for me on the dating front.

I guess it could be said that currently I am dating three different and very cool guys.

First there is Anders. He lives over the bridge in the East Bay and last night was spent with him at his home. He works with plants and designing outdoor spaces. There is much about him that appeals to me. He's also the youngest of the three at 34 years.

Next would be Todd. He's a red headed actor and surprised me this past Sunday when we woke up and he told me he was going to church. Todd is 41 years old.

Finally, Keith. He's the one I've known the longest. Ten years and counting! He's also the one I feel the safest around. Keith is 44 years old.

When it rains, it pours!!

Time will tell if any of them will last long. But I wont know unless I try.

On that note I need to call Todd because I didn't get the chance to speak with him last night.

Until Later!!!!

video journal

Something New: Video & Images

Buddhist Thought of the Week

The only real service we can render to that which we perceive and interpret in phenomenal existence as 'others' is by awakening to universal consciousness ourselves. - Ask the Awakened by Wei Wu Wei

Jury Duty

After putting off jury duty for more than three months, today was the day that I reported to the court house.

Thankfully, my day there didn't start until the early afternoon. And after waiting around for only a hour and a half, I was told my services were not required. That was the best thing that could have happened as far as I'm concerned.

All in all a very good day!

Tonight, Damon has a date!!!!

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My Week

This week has passed by rather quickly and without incident. Over all it's been uneventful and I've not managed to do a lot other than my normal building duties along with making music and taking photographs.

My creative juices are flowing and it feels great to create new tracks and photos.

I've been eating more recently. I'm not sure if it's because I'm burning more calories at the gym or if I'm just enjoying food more these days. My weight is unchanged however so I guess no harm/no foul!!

Sol is supposed to come back to SF on the morrow. Hopefully he does because I am so looking forward to seeing him! Time will tell and I'm guessing I'll know by this time tomorrow evening!!

Not much else to report Ladies & Gents!! So I say good evening...

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Until we next chat again..

Good night!!

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Buddhist Thought of the Week

Is repetitive action virtuous action? If behaviour and conduct are merely repetitive processes then all human relationships actually cease. If I behave mechanically every day, - repeating a certain code of conduct which I have learnt, which I find profitable, or which is pleasant, repeating that over and over again, - my relationship with you ceases, completely - I have become a machine. - J. Krishnamurti

My Holiday & Weekend

My Thanksgiving holiday and weekend found me motoring from one Bay-Area location to another.

On Turkey Day, a good buddy took me out to the suburbs. I stuffed my face and celebrated the holiday with people I'd never met before but who never the less made me feel welcome and warm. It's interesting to me seeing other sides of our friends and this occasion was no different! Our relationship has always been X-rated but on this day, with his family and children around, we stayed firmly on a G rating. Thankfully, his family seemed to like me and the conversation, food and company made my Thanksgiving a happy one!! I tried to volunteer but the church I contacted had enough of those. My holiday almost saw me alone but thanks to Greg, I had a place to go!!

My camera has gotten some good work as of late..I love taking photo's. Some time soon I've got to buy a new and better camera. Christmas is soon so maybe Santa will help out with this!!!

I'm happy to say I met a sexy guy this weekend. We hung out yesterday and got to know each other a bit. The only problem is that he lives almost 5 hours away! We're hoping to hang out again this coming Friday and hopefully we do because thinking of him makes my heart beat faster.

I wish he were here now!!

Anyway, it's late and time for bed for Senor Burns.

Sol, if you're reading this; know I'm thinking of you tonight and cant wait to kiss/see you again!! I hope it's soon!

Everyone else, Ciao Main !

Pre Thanksgiving Pics

Two Years and Counting..

Yesterday marked my 2ND anniversary at my current residence.

It's been a fun ride thus far and one which I hope continues for the long foreseeable future.

The last two days I've been dealing with an upset tummy combined with frequent trips to the restroom. Today that aliment is a bit better but now I'm dealing with a head cold which seems to be turning into a sinus infection.

So, I've been resting and healing the last two days and dealing with being disappointed that Eric has grown very distant and cold.

That's life. A mixture of good and bad.

I'll be happier when the good out weighs the negative.

And the pain in my head ends.

Buddhist Thought of the Week: part 2

You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself,
and you will not find that person anywhere.

Buddhist Thought of the Week

Mindfulness is the aware, balanced acceptance of the present experience.
It isn't more complicated than that.
It is opening to or receiving the present moment, pleasant or unpleasant, just as it is,
without either clinging to it or rejecting it.
Sylvia Boorstein

Photos..Once Again

I'm in love again...

Rarely do I rant about how good Apple products are but today I can't resist!!

I've just upgraded to the new operating system and this has helped me fall in love again with my computer!! Also, by doubling my RAM I've made my computer almost 4 times times faster than it was less than twenty-four hours ago.

Ah, what a good day it's been for me in computer land!

Hope you are as happy with the system running on the computer that shows you what I've been up to today!!

Ciao for now!!!

8:18 AM

The number on the clock reads 8:18 AM. That number is personally important to me. It is the number (or date) that I entered this reality.

Weird that I would pick this time to start this post. Not sure what it all means. It shouldn't surprise me however.

My head is still in the stars. This morning feels like a dream. I'm truly in some magical place.

These feelings are a result from spending time yesterday with someone who's magical and dreamy.

Eric must have put a spell on me. Is it magic? Is he? Am I? Are you?

E believes in spells, is also a lion, rides a skateboard, spends his days learning at institutions of higher learning's, makes impressive art and helps people have healthy and productive sex lives.

He turns me on but turned me out when he picked up my guitar and started to sing to me. I'm most turned on by him when I see his brain at work. And he is truly hottie!!

We had passionate and intense male bonding which honestly should have been filmed.

I guess the hormones we released are still floating around my apartment and that's why I feel this way.

It's been almost sixty minutes since I started this post and my eyes are beginning to cross from looking at the computer screen. That's my que to close this post and move on with my day.

And I'm still floating!!!!

Happy Veterans Day

Personally, I'm not a proponent of Military service. However, because of my friendship with men and women currently serving in Iraq and the US Army, I feel it's appropriate to stand up, applaud and honor the commitment and sacrifice they and others make everyday!

So....

Happy Veterans day to all the vets and future vets and I personally thank you!

Many here in the USA do not support the current administrations view towards warfare and our current engagements around the world.

I'm one of those people!! I desire something different and can't for 2008 when we will be hopefully voting in our first female Commander and Chief!!!

When that day arrives, I'll be thankful..

And Happy!!!

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