It's always very weird running into people from your past.
Th other day while on the way to my bosses house for our weekly dinner, I ran into an ex of mine.
He acted happy to see me and gave me a bright smile although who knows how he truly felt inside. The last time I saw G (as I'll call him here) things hadn't gone all that smoothly.
Well ..To be honest the last couple of times we hung had been arduous.
Greg was a bit pissed at me and had every right. He had caught me in a lie a few weeks prior. The lie was over a website I used to belong to. He gathered correctly that day that I had been actively using the account ...He put that together and accused that I must have cheated on him... When we were supposed to be monogamous!
And he would be right I'm sad to say. I was unfaithful that stupid morning and high on drugs. I wish I could go back and stop myself from being tempted because since I started using again that winter day I hadn't been able to control the Monster until very recently.
The other reason why I wish I could have made different choices that fateful morning have everything to do with Greg! He is the best, smartest, kindest and HOTTEST man I've see in a long while! And boy did Mr. Burns fuck that one up.
Sigh.
So this is my way of Clearing the Karmic Deck. I can't go back because time travel doesn't exsist yet. But you can say your sorry and this is my way of doing that.
So Greg, if you are reading this I hope one day you can forgive me.
Because, I'm truly, truly sorry.
