Today has been a tough day.
After the struggle of the last months, days and weeks; Today I put my dog, Music, in foster care.
This decision was not made lightly and right now my heart is broken. I know it's only temporary and that one day(soon I hope) will find me able to take care of her. Her foster Mom seems very nice and I know Music will have a good time with her. I also know where she is and can go see her anytime I want. I'll be getting myself over to give her plenty of walks during the next few weeks.
I'm still looking for work and I truly hope something breaks because Music was the only thing grounding me and now she's not here to do that. For now looking for a job and finding shelter tomorrow are the tops of my list. For now I'll have to steel my emotions and harden myself to the tasks at hand.
But right now this hurts.
And...
The sadness I'm feeling is so overwhelming that I wonder if I could cry forever...
