At present I'm watching Shark Week on the Discovery Channel and the calm seas in which these beasts roam remind me of my apartment the last few days.
There hasn't been a lot to report as I've been keeping it fairly mellow compared to my weekend.
JT is still sleeping a great deal, as have I.
Leaving the party has it consequences obviously.
Hopefully, we will resume a normal way of living soon because this doesn't seem like living to me.
It's more like sleeping most the days and nights of the week away only to party for a couple days. Then we just repeat the sleep schedule.
Well mostly it JT who sleeps. I manage to have a normal day up early, making music, chatting with friends, writing, preparing for school this coming semester, my Building and working a few days a week at the Pot Club.
It's frustrating to say the least.
Sigh, such is my life at present.
I hope it gets better soon. Because I feel worn out from dealing with him. It would be nice to have a normal relationship or something that felt a bit more normal and wasn't forcing me to stifle what I truly feel.
Which isn't calm seas at all but a rage at myself and JT. Maybe it's because we hate when we recognize in someone else what we recognize in ourselves.
I'm sure that's it and hopefully we are both able to deal and do better.
I love this guy and truly only want the best for both of us.
I hope he feels the same way. I really do.
