After much soul searching the last few weeks I've decided that my relationship with JT needs changing. Soon he and I will be trying something new by not spending all our time together.We moved into the relationship too quickly and I know it's a mistake I've made in the past with others I've taken on as partners.
Yesterday evening over dinner, I had a conversation with my friend/boss at his home and he and I talked over many of the things that were bothering me about the relationship I'm currently in. We also spoke about his life, family, art, my future and and many other things while sharing a yummy dinner of chicken, cauliflower and salad with wine.
Having a chance to air out my concerns last night has done me a world of good. I feel lighter and less burdened by the worry and depression that had creeped into my "sphere of being".
After it's all said and done I'm still not sure where things are going between JT and I. But what I am sure of is that serious changes need to occur and how much time we spend together.
My doubt that JT truly wants a relationship grows with every passing day. And I know there is nothing I can do but take some space and time to let things sort themselves out.
There's still a chance that he will change course and that we can make something out of whatever this relationship has become.
But I'm losing hope in him and I won't be holding my breath. His and my time together is almost up and it might just be for the best.
