Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Who's The Fool
Despite recent negative developments in my marriage my effort and interest have always been in that directions. Speaking with him for the first time yesterday; Geoffrey only brought up past arguments and problems.
I've been sending him message after message trying to reconcile because I do love him but I can't take being shut out of his life for much longer. Everyday that passes moves us further and further apart from our relationship and the love that we share.
This has been one of the most trying times in my life and I just hope it ends sooner than later.
On this April 1st I wonder..
Who's the fool? The fool or the fool who loves the fool?
I've been sending him message after message trying to reconcile because I do love him but I can't take being shut out of his life for much longer. Everyday that passes moves us further and further apart from our relationship and the love that we share.
This has been one of the most trying times in my life and I just hope it ends sooner than later.
On this April 1st I wonder..
Who's the fool? The fool or the fool who loves the fool?
Sunday, March 29, 2009
How I'm Starting Over
The past months have been an interestingly sad and rough time for my marriage. So many things have gone quickly awry that even knowing where to start in this tale seems impossible.
Despite taking vows and committing myself to a life long relationship today finds me separated, considering a divorce and staying in the Bay View District at friends place.
It's easy to accept that we both are to be held responsable for how we treated and dealt with problems. It seems like everything was an argument and those led to screaming match's and on a couple of sad occasions, kicking and hitting.
Most of my belongings are still at Geoffreys but I was however able to rescue my dog this past week. We gotta love small victories!!
It was a hard seven days with out her and it's very mean that she was purposly kept from me. But I have her now and we both will adjust.
This next week I'll start the painful process of seeing lawyers and applying for GA(general assitance) while looking for a job. I've also a doctors appointment and other social/personal/professional commitment this coming week. There is lots to do and hopefully I'll keep me busy starting over..my life getting better is only going to happen if I make it so.
Despite taking vows and committing myself to a life long relationship today finds me separated, considering a divorce and staying in the Bay View District at friends place.
It's easy to accept that we both are to be held responsable for how we treated and dealt with problems. It seems like everything was an argument and those led to screaming match's and on a couple of sad occasions, kicking and hitting.
Most of my belongings are still at Geoffreys but I was however able to rescue my dog this past week. We gotta love small victories!!
It was a hard seven days with out her and it's very mean that she was purposly kept from me. But I have her now and we both will adjust.
This next week I'll start the painful process of seeing lawyers and applying for GA(general assitance) while looking for a job. I've also a doctors appointment and other social/personal/professional commitment this coming week. There is lots to do and hopefully I'll keep me busy starting over..my life getting better is only going to happen if I make it so.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Becoming Buddha
In Buddhism, buddhahood (Sanskrit: buddhatva.Pali: buddhatta. Or (both) buddhabhāva) is the state of perfect enlightenment (Sanskrit: samyaksambodhi. Pali: sammāsambodhi) attained by a buddha (Pali/Sanskrit for "awakened one").
In Buddhism, the term 'buddha' usually refers to one who has become enlightened (i.e., awakened to the truth, or Dharma). The level to which this manifestation requires abstraction from ordinary life (ascetic practices) varies from none at all to an absolute requirement, dependent on doctrine. In Theravada Buddhist traditions, it is held that the person attains this state on their own, without a teacher to point out the Dharma, in a time when the teachings on the Four Noble Truths or the Eightfold Path do not exist in the world, and teaches it to others. In contrast, certain Mahayana Buddhist traditions (particularly those that consider the teachings of the Lotus Sutra to be paramount, which contains this concept) Buddhahood is considered to be a universal and innate property of absolute wisdom that is revealed in a person's current lifetime through Buddhist practice, without any specific relinquishment of pleasures or "earthly desires". Thus, there is an extremely broad spectrum of opinion on the universality and method of attainment of Buddhahood which is correlated to which of Shakyamuni Buddha's teachings that a school of Buddhism follows.
More broadly, it is occasionally used to refer to all who attain nirvana.[1]. In this broader sense it is equivalent to Arahant. According to Theravada Buddhism, all Arahants (or Buddhas in the broader sense) are the same in the most fundamental aspects of Liberation (Nirvana), but differ in their practice of perfections paramis. Mahayana Buddhism, however, considers there is a fundamental difference between Buddhas and ordinary arhants, on the way to becoming a Buddha, a buddhist proceeds bodhisattva stages. Buddhists do not consider Siddhartha Gautama to have been the only Buddha. The Pali Canon refers to many previous ones (see List of the 28 Buddhas), while the Mahayana tradition additionally has many Buddhas of celestial, rather than historical, origin (see Amitabha or Vairocana as examples, lists of many thousands buddha names see Taisho Tripitaka no 439-448). A common Theravada and Mahayana Buddhist belief is that the next Buddha will be one named Maitreya (Pali: Metteyya).
In Buddhism, the term 'buddha' usually refers to one who has become enlightened (i.e., awakened to the truth, or Dharma). The level to which this manifestation requires abstraction from ordinary life (ascetic practices) varies from none at all to an absolute requirement, dependent on doctrine. In Theravada Buddhist traditions, it is held that the person attains this state on their own, without a teacher to point out the Dharma, in a time when the teachings on the Four Noble Truths or the Eightfold Path do not exist in the world, and teaches it to others. In contrast, certain Mahayana Buddhist traditions (particularly those that consider the teachings of the Lotus Sutra to be paramount, which contains this concept) Buddhahood is considered to be a universal and innate property of absolute wisdom that is revealed in a person's current lifetime through Buddhist practice, without any specific relinquishment of pleasures or "earthly desires". Thus, there is an extremely broad spectrum of opinion on the universality and method of attainment of Buddhahood which is correlated to which of Shakyamuni Buddha's teachings that a school of Buddhism follows.
More broadly, it is occasionally used to refer to all who attain nirvana.[1]. In this broader sense it is equivalent to Arahant. According to Theravada Buddhism, all Arahants (or Buddhas in the broader sense) are the same in the most fundamental aspects of Liberation (Nirvana), but differ in their practice of perfections paramis. Mahayana Buddhism, however, considers there is a fundamental difference between Buddhas and ordinary arhants, on the way to becoming a Buddha, a buddhist proceeds bodhisattva stages. Buddhists do not consider Siddhartha Gautama to have been the only Buddha. The Pali Canon refers to many previous ones (see List of the 28 Buddhas), while the Mahayana tradition additionally has many Buddhas of celestial, rather than historical, origin (see Amitabha or Vairocana as examples, lists of many thousands buddha names see Taisho Tripitaka no 439-448). A common Theravada and Mahayana Buddhist belief is that the next Buddha will be one named Maitreya (Pali: Metteyya).
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Buddhist Thought for the Week
I teach that the multitudinousness of objects have no reality in themselves but are only seen of the mind and, therefore, are of the nature of maya and a dream. ...It is true that in one sense they are seen and discriminated by the senses as individualized objects; but in another sense, because of the absence of any characteristic marks of self-nature, they are not seen but are only imagined. In one sense they are graspable, but in another sense, they are not graspable. -Buddha
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Buddhist Thought for the Week
INDIAN POEM
"This day is a special day, it is yours.
Yesterday slipped away, it cannot be filled anymore with meaning.
About tomorrow nothing is known.
But this day, today, is yours, make use of it.
Today you can make someone happy.
Today you can help another.
This day is a special day, it is yours."
"This day is a special day, it is yours.
Yesterday slipped away, it cannot be filled anymore with meaning.
About tomorrow nothing is known.
But this day, today, is yours, make use of it.
Today you can make someone happy.
Today you can help another.
This day is a special day, it is yours."
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Buddhist thought the week
Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. - Buddha
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Buddhist Thought for the Week
A good friend who points out mistakes and imperfections and rebukes evil is to be respected as if he reveals a secret of hidden treasure. - Buddha
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Buddhist thought for Last week
The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances.
Atisha
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances.
Atisha
Friday, January 30, 2009
Buddhist thought the week
No matter what one does, whether one's deeds serve virtue or vice, nothing lacks importance. All actions bear a kind of fruit. - Buddha
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Buddhist thought the week
A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions. - Oliver Wendell Holmes
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
Happy Dr. Martin Luther King Day
Thank you Dr. King for paving the way for a brighter future and standing up against injustice. Our country is a better place for everyone because of your sacrifices.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Buddhist thought the week
Whoever makes love grow boundless, and sets his mind for seeing the end of birth, his fetters are worn thin. If he loves even a single being, Good will follow. But the Noble One with compassionate heart for all mankind, generates abounding good. - Buddha
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunny Sunday
Once again the attempt to write something of interest.
Sigh..
I'm not sure why it's so hard to write when I have no trouble talking out loud. Sometimes I talk loudly. Mainly it's because I wish to be heard.
Listening to music is fun. Taking a moment for music thearpy is an important time each day for me. This morning the next door neighboors asked us to turn the music which I was playing, down. I miss the loud music of my past but look forward to a future of beautiful melodies.
The whimsy words I whisper today are softer as time goes on but they linger forever on this page.
What a perfect Sunny Sunday in San Francisco.
Peace from Buena Vista Park.
Sigh..
I'm not sure why it's so hard to write when I have no trouble talking out loud. Sometimes I talk loudly. Mainly it's because I wish to be heard.
Listening to music is fun. Taking a moment for music thearpy is an important time each day for me. This morning the next door neighboors asked us to turn the music which I was playing, down. I miss the loud music of my past but look forward to a future of beautiful melodies.
The whimsy words I whisper today are softer as time goes on but they linger forever on this page.
What a perfect Sunny Sunday in San Francisco.
Peace from Buena Vista Park.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Buddhist Thought for the Week
From there to here, from here to there, funny things are everywhere... If you never did, you should. These things are fun and fun is good. - Dr. Seuss, One Fish two fish red fish blue fish, 1960
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Buddhist thought for Last week
Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little. - Buddha
Friday, January 2, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!
LOTS OF LOVE AND BIG WISHES THAT WE ALL REMAIN HEALTHY AND HAPPY FOR 2009!!!!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Buddhist Thought for the Week
"Emotions reflect intentions. Therefore, awareness of emotions leads to awareness of intentions.
Every discrepancy between a conscious intention and the emotions that accompany it, points directly to a splintered aspect of the self that requires healing."
Gary Zukav
Every discrepancy between a conscious intention and the emotions that accompany it, points directly to a splintered aspect of the self that requires healing."
Gary Zukav
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Buddhist Thought for the Week
How to reach Enlightenment in this lifetime
Many sects and traditions will have different practices to complement the Eightfold Noble Path laid out by Shakyamuni Buddha, but all have these as their basis:
Right Views: i.e., Knowledge of the Four Noble Truths:
The world is full of suffering and stress.
The cause of this suffering and stress is desires of physical instincts.
If desire can be removed, and suffering and stress will be ended.
Desire can be removed by following the Eightfold Noble Path: Right Views, Right Thoughts, Right Speech, Right Conduct, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration.
Right Thoughts: Aspire to attain realization of Nirvana, i.e., perfect wisdom, the ultimate true permanent reality.
Right Speech: Abstain from all lying, falsehoods, evil, abusive and frivolous speech.
Right Conduct: Keep the Five Precepts:
Abstain from taking life,
abstain from taking that which is not given,
abstain from misconduct done in lust,
abstain from lying,
abstain from all forms of intoxication.
Right Livelihood: Abstain from all evil living and all manner of ill-gotten gain or means of livelihood.
Right Effort: Abstain from all evil states of mind; foster and maintain virtuous states of mind; compassion, pity, sympathy, calmness and tranquility
Right Mindfulness: Regard everything as being impermanent, ill and corrupt: i.e., all feelings, perceptions, inclinations, consciousness, thoughts, mental states, mental images and mental activities.
Right Concentration: Foster dispassion, detachment, and revulsion for the things of the world as being decaying and impermanent. Practice aloofness from evil states of mind, from the senses and all sensations. Practice dwelling in solitude and seclusion, meditating and reflecting with singleness of mind.
Many sects and traditions will have different practices to complement the Eightfold Noble Path laid out by Shakyamuni Buddha, but all have these as their basis:
Right Views: i.e., Knowledge of the Four Noble Truths:
The world is full of suffering and stress.
The cause of this suffering and stress is desires of physical instincts.
If desire can be removed, and suffering and stress will be ended.
Desire can be removed by following the Eightfold Noble Path: Right Views, Right Thoughts, Right Speech, Right Conduct, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration.
Right Thoughts: Aspire to attain realization of Nirvana, i.e., perfect wisdom, the ultimate true permanent reality.
Right Speech: Abstain from all lying, falsehoods, evil, abusive and frivolous speech.
Right Conduct: Keep the Five Precepts:
Abstain from taking life,
abstain from taking that which is not given,
abstain from misconduct done in lust,
abstain from lying,
abstain from all forms of intoxication.
Right Livelihood: Abstain from all evil living and all manner of ill-gotten gain or means of livelihood.
Right Effort: Abstain from all evil states of mind; foster and maintain virtuous states of mind; compassion, pity, sympathy, calmness and tranquility
Right Mindfulness: Regard everything as being impermanent, ill and corrupt: i.e., all feelings, perceptions, inclinations, consciousness, thoughts, mental states, mental images and mental activities.
Right Concentration: Foster dispassion, detachment, and revulsion for the things of the world as being decaying and impermanent. Practice aloofness from evil states of mind, from the senses and all sensations. Practice dwelling in solitude and seclusion, meditating and reflecting with singleness of mind.
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