Buddhist thought

Whoever makes love grow boundless, and sets his mind for seeing the end of birth, his fetters are worn thin. If he loves even a single being, Good will follow. But the Noble One with compassionate heart for all mankind, generates abounding good. - Buddha

I GOT MY MUSIC BACK!!

The last few days have been awesome!!

Turning 36 could not have been more fun and awesome! I got to hang out with new and old friends!!! Awesome!! Received many a birthday wish from family, friends and friends who are family!! Awesome!! Was happy to be the recipient of gifts from a sweetheart of a man named Dan!! Awesome!!

But didn't have any birthday cake as per the norm.. Not so awesome. But by not eating any cake I didn't have those extra sweet calories added to my ass. I guess that's awesome!!!???

Yesterday I met with my case manager at the shelter and signed a number of documents that very well could lead me to having my own place again. And it could happen fairly soon!!

Yall know that's awesome!!

And to top it all off...

The Music has returned to my life!!

I appreciate her even more after her fostering the past two weeks. She looks, acts and even smells more awesome than before!! My dog is the greatest dog ever!!!

God, I sound like a mushy parent!!!

And I guess that's awesome too!!

ONCE AGAIN: NEW PICS TAKEN BY ME!!

13,140 days and counting on Planet Earth !!

So it's my party and I'll do what I want to.

LOL..

36 years..Wow.

Honestly, it's not much of a surprise to me. But the Doctor who told me that I'd be lucky to see my 25Th birthday probably is.

Makes me wonder if my Mom's three abortion attempts created a survival instinct that allows this Man Cat to land feet first?

For sure the last six months have tested me in ways most can not possibly imagine. My emotional and coping barometer has seen more than it's fair share of heat and stress. But like Elton John..

"I'm still standing!!"

Head unbowed!

Truly and stoically proud of all the decisions this man has made.

Free from a toxic relationship.

Liberated from a past I wish I could delete.

But now with a wisdom and strength gained from escaping a evil human who's only wish was to harm me.

Future opportunities are still there and all my talents are still mine.

What a beautiful world I shall create with my grit, blood and passions!!

I am grateful for each of my 36 years/ 13,140 days!!! And I couldn't be more opportunistic about the next 36 +!!

From the depths of his soul/
Today: August 18Th, 2009, Damon John Burns yelps to the world and universe/

Bring it!! For I am ready!!

Buddhist Thought For The Week

The tongue like a sharp knife... Kills without drawing blood. - Buddha

Good Things

The sun as it rises over the Hills of the World.

Cooked food. Dog Breath(from an actual dog)!

A man's freshly cleansed skin.

Love & Peace. Meditation and Realization. Maturation. Relaxation.

Masturbation.

Dancing to Big Beat on soft feet while we tweak.

Sex, drugs with cock in hole and finding a place to call home.

Best efforts and laughing freely at my humble aTTemp towards expressions done wittily.

Just Dont Know.

Last night was spent at a homeless shelter. After being locked out by my former friends, Lee and Gabe, I've been forced to seek public housing through the City of SF.

And it's not like I've been lazy.

There was even a job interview this week. But this particular Cab Company doesn't hire you unless you have had a license for two years or more.

There are other companies I could work for. Not sure how much more stress I can take tho. Maybe I should move back East. I've family that cares for me and loves me.

Is being here in California still working for me?

I don't know.

I just dont know.

Today was Tough

Today has been a tough day.

After the struggle of the last months, days and weeks; Today I put my dog, Music, in foster care.

This decision was not made lightly and right now my heart is broken. I know it's only temporary and that one day(soon I hope) will find me able to take care of her. Her foster Mom seems very nice and I know Music will have a good time with her. I also know where she is and can go see her anytime I want. I'll be getting myself over to give her plenty of walks during the next few weeks.

I'm still looking for work and I truly hope something breaks because Music was the only thing grounding me and now she's not here to do that. For now looking for a job and finding shelter tomorrow are the tops of my list. For now I'll have to steel my emotions and harden myself to the tasks at hand.

But right now this hurts.

And...

The sadness I'm feeling is so overwhelming that I wonder if I could cry forever...